Words Left Unspoken

For Two Long Months

For two long months

It was you whom I want to see

It was your eyes I want to stare

It was your voice I want to hear

It was your hug I want to feel

It was your hand I want hold

Oh for two long months

Thoughts of you was my routine

For two long months

I was shrouded with sadness

I kept on expecting

And was only disappointed

To wake up with nothing but an empty inbox

I said its okay, its okay, comfort I say

To face a day

Without you wondr’n if I’m okay

I said its okay, its okay, comfort I say

To sleep without your goodnight

I love you and sleep tight

I said its okay, its okay, comfort I say

Oh for two long months,

Sixty one days

I said its okay, its okay

Everything’s okay…

Later I realized

Maybe someone has arrived

Caught your attention

And grabbed you by the heart

Later I was told

It was your best friend who arrived

I tried to call you for a countless times

God knows it was tough

To hear “unreachable” for a countless times

And for so many times

I tried to answer

“What’s on my mind?”

A shout to let you hear

“Hey! I’m here!”

But again,my shout's been ignored

Later I found the core

There, in your mind, I found this girl

And I, again and again

For two long months

Completely disappeared

In the picture I should've portrayed

For two long months

I kept on saying, its okay, its okay

Everything’s okay

But in the darkness of the night

Tears just fell in a pillow I held so tight

I was your woman

And I thought you were my man

But why did I end up being the second one?

Alone, abandoned and ignored

Oh I asked

What have I done to be treated that way?

Was I so harsh, so blunt, so pathetic?

Or was I a mistake you wanted to impede?

Was she the woman you were so happy with?

And was I the girl you don’t want to be with?

Was I so wrong to believe your words?

Was I so childish to ask for your time?

Was I being so sensitive to think that you like her?

And that for two long months

You completely forgot that I was here?

After that two long months

You finally came back

I was observing you

Happy to finally see you

But if I may ask

Did you feel the same way too?

 To my surprise,

You were never happy to say you were back

We met and we talked

No sparks, no nothing

Perhaps everything is true

“I need to spend my time with her coz she’s sick and you’re not”

Was the only words you threw

Stunned and completely blank

For that two long months...

It was painful to accept that my Shaun was gone

And God knows it was a lot painful to say “I’m letting you go”

You may have asked

Why did I say SPACE?

Why did I ask “comma or dot?”

Perhaps I was hoping Shaun would come back…