What’s with 13?

What’s with 13?

Others would say, it’s another ordinary number, some people might say this is a bad number, maybe because they somehow, relate it to Friday the Thirteenth. I remember my mom always remind me to stay at home every time the date, 13, falls on Friday, she said, worse things happen on Friday the Thirteenth. In my case, however, this number represents the date where my life had faced a new chapter. A day which flipped my entire 18^th life into waking up and knowing that someone is waiting for me, wishes for my existence and longs for my presence. But on the contrary, this date also signifies the broken bond that I had with someone.

Eleven months, 352 days, 8447.92 hours, and 506,875 min ago, at the same room and in the same bed where I have been sleeping, with my lights off , in the middle of the night, while everyone are sleeping and using the same phone that is now in my mom’s possession, was when I chose to accept this man as my other half, to face every succeeding days with him at my side, to accept every single harsh words my parents could say, the very day when I had to say “I’m taken”

The first day, yeah sure, I’d have to admit, everything seemed to be perfect knowing that I wasn’t alone. On the next days and months, there were lots of “firsts”, first kiss, first hug, first date, first “HHWW” with someone. There were also cute moments that until now, haunts me in depths of my mind. Yeah, as there is never a “Perfect” relationship, we had also faced a lot of misunderstandings and hardships that really cost that droplet of water to run from our cheeks and fall down on our hands.  As we were both new to these “relationship” thingy, we were still trying to adjust.

What’s difficult about getting into a relationship is that the feelings that you had with someone is affected by the fact that you both have to commit. Indeed, commitment complicates everything. Yes, it was fun but at the same time, it was hard. I was pressured. I tried my best not to act so childish; to love myself more so wouldn’t feel the insecurities. In the end though, this was one of the reasons which pushed him to fall out…

At first, I thought, it’s nothing, that it’s normal, that everything’s fine and that nothing is wrong. I completely shut the idea of him falling out. But no matter how I try to close my eyes… I couldn’t get myself believe that the reason why I’m there, still exists. Right after he left for vacation, he slowly forgotten the fact that I was still there... It was hard and painful, God knows how many nights I’ve cried for the same reason… I wouldn’t want to believe it but reality had slapped it right in my face after seeing “that” I cried and cried, I wouldn’t want to believe that he has chosen his best friend over me, his girlfriend. I was angry with that girl, I admit. How could she act like that when I know for sure that she knew I exist? How could she? I understand that they’re close but should it really get to that point? It was painful to realize that he’s far more interested to talk and spend his time on that girl… He told me the reason though… he said his best friend has been suffering from a disease, and I don’t know If I’d believe that… I had cried a countless times, and he didn’t knew any of it, neither is that woman who acts as if this man is his “boyfriend”. But guess what? “I had to spend my time with her, coz she’s sick and you’re not” was the very line he threw right when he got back… I was preparing myself for a break-up but I was left speechless as he threw these words in front of me… IT WAS PAINFUL! And it still is… That’s the time I had chosen to leave… even when it’ll cost a lot of suffering and pain and tortures brought by the memories. But do I have a choice?

Now, five months had passed, but why am I still feeling that tinge of pain, the reality that I lost someone I treasured much just because of his best friend? What’s even more hurtful? It’s when the news broke that he has someone now to call “Girlfriend” and guess who? the very reason why I waved the white flag, YES, IT’S HIS BEST FRIEND.

Would you say I’m stupid? That I am the most stupid person on earth because I couldn’t get myself MOVE ON completely… The past kept me on the dark side… though I tried to divert my attention, just out of nowhere, my memory of him pops up…

In a few days, this number would then again remind me of the times we had, and I’m not sure how I’d face it, now that I know, he’s with the person I had once hated…

29 Signs a Guy Likes You

We girls sometimes are just too curious about BOYS, ain’t that right?  Oo naman noh! Well, honestly, I myself really want to know if ever we have a mutual understanding with the person I admire. Hmm.. and thanks to my source, she shared me this one. As I was reading this, anyway, I was dead expecting to have a positive result… it turned out, however, that these signs just remind me of someone but not the other significant someone.. how sad uy! :(

29 Signs a guy Likes You

1. He will ask you if you ever have a boyfriend. [syempre to make sure na may chance xa sa’yo no! Sayang rin naman ang effort?]
2. Texts you a lot.
3. He will lean towards you during a conversation.
4. He stares at you, I mean, A LOT!
5. Calls you with a name no one has ever called you. [of course, he wants to create a special bond between the two of you, gumagawa ng foundation ika nga..]
6. Acts weird when you’re around with the other boys.
7. Asks a lot about your favorites.
8. Does you favors.
9. Protective of you.
10. Gets jealous when you talk to other guys.
11. Remembers everything, take note! EVERYTHING you said.
12. Shows off to impress you.
13. When you’re around, he acts immature with his friends and gazes over at you to see if you think it’s funny.
14. Playfully tease you.
15. Always smiling when he’s around you.
16. Ask your friends about you.
17. He’ll tickle you to hear you laugh.
18. Follows you around
19. Say your name a lot.
20. Watch his friend, do they grin at him when you walk past?
21. He might also act nervous around you.
22. If he can choose seat, of course, he’ll sit beside you.
23. He will walk slowly beside you in the hallways at school.
24. Calls you for no exact reason at all.
25. Apologizes for the mistakes his friends made when they make fun of you.
26. If you’re listening to your ipod he’ll want to listen too.
27. He will talk to the person next to you and act like you’re not there.
28. Says sorry for every little thing like accidentally touch you.
29. If your shoulders or legs touch he won’t move away.

Well, well, are any of these 29 signs familiar to you? Reminds you of someone? Hope you had a good vision on who that is.

Thanks for reading! :)